It has been some time since I have sat down and told the world what is going on with me and my experience with THE FAKULTE….
Well first let me say its funny how 6 moths of being around a group of people all the time makes you feel like you have known and loved them for years…. Time is something that comes and it goes, it waits for no one and once it’s gone you can’t get it back. For a simple four letter word it carries great meaning along with it. Time moves no faster than it did yesterday and yet we get lost in the concept of how fast time has gone. When really all that happened is we stop long enough for the moment to slow us down while time keeps on going. And for the last few months that’s where I’ve been. I was stuck in a moment in time. In reality its probably been about two months since I wrote on this blog. But for me its seems like its been much longer. My journey with the Fakulte has taken me to another place in my life that I wasn’t expecting to get to so quickly and so greatly. It’s like chapters to my book are just now being reviled to me and I am seeing things about myself I didn’t see once before. When I joined THE FAULTE I saw a dream of one person and I saw the love, believeth, and confidence he had in a group of people that he loved and cared for pulling them together from all parts of his life creating one family. To me that was a beautiful thing and all I wanted was to be able to see their dreams come true and tell the story. And now I am a part of this dream. With that came a great family but it also brought a reality and a choice I had to make…..
I spent a good part of my life in a bubble… nobody understood me in my own family as I grow up. I was trained from real young to stay quiet and do as I was told. So as I grew only a few have gotten close enough to know me… and everybody else got a wall. For two reason I didn’t want to know what “they” thought of me and I don’t give “them” the chance to form an opinion. So when it came down to it … all I had was me. I have spent a lot of my life running from people and situation and problems, just to end up with them in my face again….. I could blame it on my childhood but instead I won’t I will just say that growing and learning is something that never stops from the day we are born so I am teaching myself again a new way….. I’ve always been hard headed and the same remains true…. But like I have heard from my dad all my life…. A heard head will make a soft ass ….. Meaning one day you will learn.
So with my personal life being in ruins and having nothing else I poured myself into this FAKULTE life…… and although I loved it and some good came out of it for me personally it brought out a lot of bad things in me I had never seen before. Since I had nothing else my world became The FAKULTE and I held on to it for dear life… with the great fear of losing it like I have lost many other things through life. It brought me to some turns in this road that I would have run from early in my life. It also made me face some harsh realities about myself.
With this road I’m going down now it comes with some rocky highways and smooth byways but I see where it can take me. And this time I didn’t want to run anymore…… I’ve always been one to let my emotions run rapid with me….but with a lot of humbling and listening I realized I don’t need to run anymore.
….. I love my crew because they fit me…… we all have our own paths that we walk but the thing about THE FAKULTE that I love is we all come back to where we fit…… we come from all different places and we fit perfectly together…….
I have sat back and watched my team for the last few months and although we all had to deal with life and the harsh reality of it…. We all remained focus on our goal together while supporting each other in our own personal struggles. If you ever got somewhere worth any value, then you know it takes a lot of something to get there. We as a family have been through it but we as individuals have grown from it. We can now appreciate where we are going as a unit a lot more then what we may have if we didn’t go through anything at all. With a team like this where was I going to run….. I need my team and they need me. We live this life and with each other and we are learning how to do it the right way with each step we take. We all play an important part in the greatness that is going on within the company; and although there is always someone that can do the job I do and possibly do it better….. There is no one that can take the place of the love and loyalty I carry for my team….. So Chapp_e won’t be going anywhere I have found a family that loves me and got me no matter what…. That was hard to find in one person throughout my life and here I have found it with my family of misfits….
This experience with THE FAKULTE has been a REAL one and its only getting realer.
This life we all choose to live is as much personal for us as it is business. We carry each other through the hard times and we stand strong together. We have built such a foundation that everything we build on top of it will be carefully thought out and planned before it becomes part of the structure.
THE FAKULTE MUSIC GROUP is still going strong with no intension of slowing down. We are in the process of starting up our own radio show (Face The FAKS Radio) with other projects going on.
Everything is about timing and everything comes in its own time. We want more than anything to make things happen in our time, but we all know the world doesn’t work like that and for me I personally like it that way. If i got what I want when I wanted it then I wouldn’t have learned anything…… So ill take the lessons and wait for the right time.
We THE FAKULTE have reached our time and this time right here is all we have…. With each sec with each min with each hour we are taking the moment for all its worth and we aren’t going to let time pass us by….. We are running with it and now that the time is here we are going with it non-stop until our time to is done.
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